My last post was on the purging that has been going on in the Mosher household. It's still going on in huge ways and has become life changing. (More on the new way of purging in a later post).
As a lot of you know, I will soon be leading a small group study on 7. It's designed as a weekly fast from 7 things. I feel very inadequate and unworthy in leading such a study, but it's very full of grace and for that I'm very thankful!
I watched the first 2 videos in preparation of leading this, knowing how long it will be and what it will be like. I was very convicted, as the leader - the shepherd in watching the first video. And again felt unworthy and so small.
I read 7 while I was in Guatemala. While we were saving money and fundraising to go. While so many things in my life felt out of order and overwhelmed with every day life, I was reading this book on purging. At least that was my perspective. Nothing wrong with that, right? Doing clean up in your daily life to allow more room for the good God would bring.
But I kind of lost my focus in the purging. Do you ever do that? Start something with such great intentions on doing it right, then either get lost in the details or lose focus of the larger goal? I had even promised myself I wouldn't do that. I would keep my eye on the prize - more time in my life for God and tasks He has for me.
So, what happened to me during my preparation was the question ---- what is your larger goal of 7? What is God wanting to do in your life without these distractions? And the biggie --- what are you going to do in your life each week IN PLACE of your fast? Ouch. I just wanted the fast, the break and play this by ear. (For those of you in my study --- this is NOT required -- this was God speaking directly to me).
Ouch. Yuck. I don't do well with big thinking. I began praying - thinking maybe I hadn't heard right. Praying. Nothing. Praying. Nothing. Maybe I'm off the hook here. Praying. Facebook.........
A post I'm tagged in is an inspirational story. A vlog of an accomplishment. I ask why did you post this to me? Response... you've got great stories to tell.
Seriously. Some day I might be able to do something with these stories -- because they are very true works of God in my life. Someday but not now. A lot of those things aren't complete in my life.
I'm putzing along in the book I received for mother's day - slowly processing this idea of writing a book. Slowly trying to even understand what the book is saying (I was given the title of this book by a great author who said it's the best). A book where you literally read a page and have to reread it to get it. (At least that's true for me - cause I have very simplistic thought processes, no judging please. :))
Guess what's on the next page?
As you begin this journey --- the next part of the book is written for 7 weeks of writing/organizing/analyzing your thoughts into a formalized book. You can end up with 7 chapters, an outline for it or a much clearer idea of what to do next after 7 weeks.
I rubbed my eyes. Did that say 7? 7 weeks? No. I'm sure it didn't. Yes it did.
I've downloaded an app to help organize my thoughts. Heaven help me.
